Saturday, September 13, 2008

My Story

I've been thinking a lot about "my story" lately. I am always hesitant to share it. I have fear, that I will put people off, that it will serve more to separate than connect. And yes, probably still, the fear that if you really knew the truth about me you would run away. Fast.

This morning I read Ephesians 3. It speaks to me about the mystery of grace and transformation. Not so much about personal transformation but about being transformed from an orphan in the world and being adopted into God's family. Jews, Gentiles, Saints, Sinners, past and present, living and dead - coming together, through Christ, into a Family of Believers. And it seems that the whole focal point of Paul's prayer,

is for us to get it.

To take in the incomprehensible love and acceptance that can not be earned or deserved, that is not contingent upon how well I follow the rules or whether or not I make "something of myself" in this life. That is there regardless of my past, present or future failures. There is something more, something deeper, a promise that rejection by the world, is not the end. There is love and relationship that is unlike anything I have experienced. And all Paul is really asking,

is for me to get it.

Ephesians 3:14-21
For this reason I kneel before the Father,
From whom His whole Family in heaven and on earth derives it's name.
I pray that out of His glorious riches
He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit
in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.
And I pray that you,
being rooted and established in love,
may have power, together with all the saints,
to grasp how wide and long and high and deep
is the love of Christ,
and to know this love that surpasses knowledge-
that you may be filled to the measure
of all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do
immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine,
according to His power
that is at work within us,
to Him be the Glory in the Church
and in Christ Jesus
throughout all generations,
for ever and ever!
Amen

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